How I feel

Today I go to the doctor to get a follow up on my Pneumonia. Atring insisted. I honestly do not know what would happen to me if it wasn't for her. She is the very best!!!
I feel so helpless sometimes. I cannot walk fast. I remember how people use to run to catch up with me. Now I can walk, but I feel the weakness in my legs, and use the cane to keep my balance, mostly. But the inability to talk intelligibly is the greatest drawback. I have a lot to say, and I am not stupid. The tendency for a person who hears one who cannot talk well is to shine him on. Trust me, I get so frustrated when I try to talk...and even the whiteboard I use does not convey the emotion I want...or the concern....or the thankfulness.

The other big problem...not so bad, but embarrassing, The laughing and crying. With ALS you somehow lose the ability to control your laugh or crying...your emotions. I find myself smiling at things that are very serious. And by the same token I find myself crying at the smallest heart rendering scene or thought. Oh well. So far I have kept that out of the public view.

Well,as I used to say years ago..I keep on trucking!!