Atring and I took the train from San Diego to LA on Thursday. We had a good time. A lot more relaxing than driving the car in LA traffic. But it was riding the train that I realized some things. I am so afraid of being dependent and a burden on others. Atring is always feeding me via the tube, and looking after me. I am loosing my ability to walk slowly but surely, and I am loosing the tactile feeling in my hands slowly. I am increasingly unable to eat...every bite is an adventure. I love the taste of the food, but getting it down without choking is very difficult.
I do not want to be helpless... I have been so independent my whole life. Doing what I want to do, being the one who was there to help others. Now...I am unable though very willing to do so. We go to church every Sunday, and I sit there and pray as always for my family and friends....bu now I also ask for strength to get me through this ordeal.
On a happy note, while I was at Pete's place, Nathan came over and prepared a fantastic dinner of pork chops and sauerkraut, garlic mashed potatoes, and fried squash. Simply delicious. He is a great chef!
Carlsbad Marathon Roll For a Cure Jan 25, 2009
The Cook Men at Thanksgiving
ALS Team Walk At Mission Bay October, 2008
My Pogi Sons
The family
Rod, Chuck and Steve in Millington Tennessee August 2008
Chuck and Atring
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