Frustration

Well today I have been more frustrated than ever. I find that I am losing control of my hands...that is there is no tactile feeling as I have an extremely hard time even buttoning my shirt or zipping my pants. I also have no strength left, as I found out when I tried to turn the car keys in the ignition and could not do it.
When I am sitting on the floor, I find it extremely hard to get up.
When I walk I use a cane and walk so slow...my right leg is almost inoperable.

Though I do get frustrated, I get so upset with myself...knowing the most mundane tasks that I used to perform are exceedingly difficult. But if I cannot do it, I ask my wife for assistance. And she is there to help.

I remember being so independent, even when I was young..telling my beloved Mother
"I can do it, Mommy, I can." Now I am not so sure.

I rearranged my room today, something that is hard but not very taxing as long as you plan ahead. I did that, but found out I did not have the strength to plug a electrical cord into an outlet. It was so frustrating. My son, Rick came over and we had the whole job done in less than 15 minutes.

Oh well..
I thank God for my life and my lovely wife and wonderful sons. And the ability to wake up each day enjoy his beautiful world. I am thankful I live in the best country in the world. Freedom abounds, and I can say I am responsible for my own life.
Have a wonderful day...until next time.